Tomorrow's Yesterday

Ocean wonderland, cease your fall
May the bloody current cease
in the surreal envelope of time


as the mist rolls in
the sky is hidden
by reality behind the eyes


cacaphonic symphony of bloody art
painted on empty canvases
filled with echoes of the past


walls of the future
closing in on the past
to drown out the present


vicious cycles
never ending squares
of agonizing pleasure


as the moonlit day
sneaks boldly
into the hot night


the deafening silence
drowns the heedless screams
of the rocks of reality


and the life in the death
tolls the chimes of the coming
cold of the Son


walking where angels trod
in shoes of gold and lace
crystal rain giggles


in an ocean wonderland
whose current shall never cease
as present pasts are remembered for tomorrow's yesterday

Does My Life Change Today?

You say that you love me, you want me to stay.
Yet because of what I am, you turn away.
Make up your mind, what do you say?
Tell me now, does my life change today?


Some people can't change, even if they try
Some people are just simply born to cry
And some people just aren't mean to stay
Tell me now, does my life change today?


I don't know where I'm heading, I don't really care.
When I think of my life, you're always there.
There's so many words that I just can't say.
Tell me now, does my life change today?


So many roads I could have chosen, but I stayed by your side.
Through heartaches and worries and fears, I became your bride.
Standing by you through the hassles and frazzles of every fray.
Tell me now, does my life change today?


No where to go, no where to turn.
This is the last bridge I'll ever burn.
This is the last time I'm turning away.
Tell me now, does my life change today?


I don't know what life has in store
if I do decide to walk out that door
but there is one thing fate can't take away
I'll always love you, even if life changes today.

Heal the World

There will always be heartache
There will always be pain
But by living in silence
You've no joy to gain


Speak up now
tell your story to the world
it doesn't matter
if you're a boy or girl


If we speak up
we can break the silence
we can heal the world
if we can stop the violence


Do not be afraid
There are others too
And we will walk together
hand in hand with you


Your voice will rise with many
To open the people's eyes
so lift up your voice
and scream your story to the sky


If we speak up
we can break the silence
we can heal the world
if we can stop the violence


There are too many
Walking with a wounded heart
and that will never change
unless the speaking starts


Once you tell your story
your healing can begin
and in telling your story
you'll surely find a friend


who has been in your place
who understands the way you feel
and only by speaking out
can you truly heal


If we speak up
we can break the silence
we can heal the world
if we can stop the violence

Save Me Tonight

stars are falling
voices calling
wind is singing
chimes are ringing


graveyard shift begins again
another day is done
I look up and say hello moon
where has gone the sun


bats in the belfry
cobwebs on stairs
echoes of silence
of blank empty cares


save me now
save me tonight
save me forever
save me from me


voices in silence
scream out in pain
deafening silence
ocean eyes of rain


tiptoe so loudly
in an empty, crowded room
no one shall leave me
we're all fated to doom
another bright night
another dark day
one more final start
to listen to what you don't say


save me now
save me tonight
save me forever
save me from me

Rescue Our Tomorrow

When today is all you have
for tomorrow is so far away
I'll hold out my hand for you
we'll save each other today


when it seems that life is empty
and there's nothing left to say
why not reach out for me
and ask for help today


there is no shame
in saying today is not for me
ask the world to rescue your tomorrow
only the truth shall set you free


in silence you will suffer
speak out to kill the pain
you'll find that you are not alone
you have so much left to gain


so reach out for someone's hand
you'll be surprised to find we care
we'll rescue your tomorrow
but first you have to share


we can't rescue your tomorrow
if you don't speak out today
I know you think it's too hard
to put to words all you have to say


there is nothing wrong
with feeling the way you do
and we'll rescue your tomorrow
we're all here to help save you


won't you please rescue my tomorrow
I need help all the time
and in reaching out for help
you also offer a lifeline


because we'll all come together
one survivor at a time
until we stand forever in
a circle of the healing kind

Tomorrow's Number

Sitting here once more in silence. The house is eerie and still.
And I am trying to find a voice to say just how I feel.
The problem isn't the voice, though, it's the thoughts inside my head.
Leaving me confused and tattered, my emotions left for dead.
Everything has misted over, no fear do I now know.
I am not even sorry to say I have to go.
Life and love have been a rollercoaster ride.
But I have many great friends remaining by my side.
And I know that I will have another tomorrow.
And though that tomorrow is limited, I feel no sorrow.
My life has been of my own making, be it heaven or be it hell.
It was me who bore myself up when into the insanity I fell
for I hid it from so many, the best, at least, that I could.
But I never asked for assistance; I knew I never would.
But destiny gave me the friends I needed when I needed them most,
and when my time comes at last, I hope my memory remains, a ghost
of smiles and tears, of laughter and fears, of sorrow and joy
and a reminder, that a heart is not a toy.

Find Your Princess

К кому я обращаюсь?
Молчание так громко.
Я больно, кого я люблю больше всего.
Я приносящий боль.
Я только желаю им радость.
И тем не менее, они отказываются покидать мою сторону.
Как они могут стоять, чтобы увидеть меня?
Неужели они боятся меня слышите говорить?
Моя любовь к ним убивает нас всех.
Сладкая смерть, обнимает меня.
Оставьте их нетронутыми.
Я надеюсь, что они найдут чистую радость.
Я надеюсь, что они живут долго и счастливо.
Где их принцессой?
Я надеюсь, что они найдут ее в ближайшее время.

Where the Wild Rose Blooms

When I am no longer here
And your arms can no longer pull me close
Look for the butterfly floating on the breeze
Listen for my love whispering on the wind


When I am no longer here
And my laughter has disappeared
Listen for my love whispering on the wind


When I am no longer here
And our night long chats are silenced
Listen to the beat of your heart


When I am no longer here
And my childlike innocence you miss
Pick up your nieces and nephews and see me in their eyes


When I am no longer here
and Jehovah has laid me to rest
Do not mourn for me


When I am no longer here
And everything seems dim
Find the beauty of life
where the wild rose blooms

Just Me

Hatred, loathing, rage, pain, suffering, despair.

All of these and more well up inside me at once,
making me a case of nerves,
wanting to die yet not wanting to leave the world behind.
Things aren't as they seem,
and my life is a perfect example.
Everything on the outside is the picture of perfection,
a child's dream come true,
and yet inside the tumult grows,
rising and tossing me about as though a ship on a swollen sea.
I try to control the rolling slashings of my mind against my soul,
yet to no avail.
I find myself chained in a fury of rage against myself,
with no way to escape,
held hostage by hatred.
The tide shifts, but only sideways.
In the hell of my mind,
there is no up, and down does not exist,
for I am at the bottom. 
Suddenly, voices from the past and present break through into my mind and breaks the black walls,
letting the light of love in,
shifting the tide back out to sea,
leaving me to be just that,
only that,
once again,
just me.

Never Known

Don't look in my eyes.  I don't want you seeing me cry.

Cuz the tears that I hide are buried inside
where no one can see, no one but me
I'm not the one that you thought you knew
away I have flown from things that were shown
but you buried my heart in such a way no one will know
until I go
My love has grown cold
nothing is here save that which I fear
more than I bear knowing you care
for someone mistaken for me
you've gone and I'm all alone
And I fear I have grown into something unreal
Something I feel

I know I am not what you forgot
but I'm all alone now
and I don't know how to go on
in a life without you.  You said you'd be true
but that wasn't real and all I can feel
is the pain in my heart that you ripped apart
with all of your lies; you twisted me inside
til something got broke. I'm afraid I will choke
on the words that I say, if I try to delay

I love you

I always will.  I know there is no truth
I have felt and the love I have shown,
nothing is real
and the love I have known and you lied to me
straight to my face
it's killed me in more than one way
and only I know how I cry
and I wish I could die
so I'll just say goodbye