Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Calling Out in Silence

My stomach is churning, I have a yearning, my heart is burning, people are turning.
See my tears, see my fears, scarred by the years, broken mind's gears
Turning like mad, crying so sad, hurting real bad, sanity not had.
Climbing the wall, see me fall, blood turned gall, please hear my call

Do not turn away from me!
If you but look you will see!
I am not as well as I try to be!
Please, come set me free!

Look at the eyes behind this mask.
Tears over years so far past.
Scarring all hope so vast.
Killing my heart so fast.

I'm not the one you think I was.
I can tell you this now because
of all the things he does
clears my brain of the fuzz

I am misguided
There is no hiding
No more time biding
My fate is decided

My stomach is churning, I have a yearning, my heart is burning, people are turning.
See my tears, see my fears, scarred by the years, broken mind's gears
Turning like mad, crying so sad, hurting real bad, sanity not had.
Climbing the wall, see me fall, blood turned gall, please hear my call

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Doubt

Burning up yet still I shake
away this fear I can't escape
it haunts me every move I make
My fingers through my hair I rake
as I sigh yet again and look away
too scared to face the coming day
This day I fear shall hold my doom
as I sit here locked in this room
I want to run but which way is out
No one will answer my terrified shout
I rant and rave and flail about
drowning myself deep in doubt

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

The Blood of the Rose

All day long
I stay alone
locked in my room
with nothing to do
Nighttime falls in the dark
casting shadows in my heart
I am sad, alone and confused
My heart is broken, my body bruised
I do not know how to cry
All I can do is sigh
towards the heaven and sky
and pray to God to let me die
I really do not want to go
but anything else I do not know
for once again I am alone
turning my wet tears to dry bone
as the petals of the rose bleed
and run, planting their seed
of sorrow deep in my eye
leaving me nothing to do but cry
so now I tell you once again goodbye
and pray to see you again, if ever you die